Music Wednesday - new beginnings

Yesterday was a kind of anniversary for me and I thought it would be a very appropriate day to start a new chapter. I enrolled in glass fusing and bead making classes and it was supposed to start last night. Filled with anticipation and excitement, I set off into my new chapter, just to find it 'empty'. When I got to the glass studio, they had a notice at the door, that the Worcester Center for Crafts has decided to close operations until they can figure out how to proceed in this difficult economic climate. So imagine me standing there in front of the door, forlorn in this industrial and deserted area of Worcester on a night cold as ice and having my new beginning just taken away from me - well and the $450. That I was not informed of this ahead of time and offered a refund is so unbelievable, that I couldn't even get angry, I was completely stunned.

Instead, without much planning though, did today turn into the new pages I was looking for. I had my first voice lesson today. It was almost impossible to get any real voice out, I was cold and nervous, but I figure that we all have to start somewhere in order to get somewhere else. Coincidentally, J started with choir today as well. Through some degrees of separation we found this wonderful program in Worcester. She did a small audition and stayed for 2 hours of rehearsal. I think she will enjoy it tremendously, of course it is a big beginning for her and not easy, she is quite shy and does not know anybody. It is interesting that we are setting out onto this journey of singing together, it is rather neat actually. And both of us found out today, that we have a very large range between the lowest and the highest note.

The last months have felt cluttered and unfocused, I did not experience the degree of control that I need to feel good and it was/is a bit overwhelming. I had felt such direction in summer and was very driven and then it slipped away somehow. In the last weeks though, it seems like things are back on track, furthermore, it feels like it becomes clear where we as a family like to lay focus. Music is definitely turning into a very important force in out lives. When kids are little, there are so many different things they try and now we are getting to an age, where they find their niches and interests and can delve deeper. We concentrate on our own individual things, but all of us focus on music as well.

I always envisioned myself with a large family all making music together. I did not get that large family, but maybe I can get the making music part. At least the compass is set.